I've been depressed a lot of my life. Anyway, I have rambled on enough I think. And I'm only 35. And trust me, talking helps SOOO much more than you know. I hope that you find relief. Suicide isn't the answer, it never will be. Huge unemployment rates. We are working on fixing some of these problems, so check back in ten years. Anyway, that's not what you're asking. If you have something you really want to pursue, then you must be able to live with some amount of discomfort in order to do that. Wow, thank you for your response. I’m trying to break through but I just get in this head space sometimes that’s hard to get out of. I don’t know what exactly but I know I have the biggest desire to believe in something. r/AskReddit is the place to ask and answer thought-provoking questions. I don't know you, and I don't have to. I hate everyone. I haven’t been taking good care of myself this week. I don't think nursing will be a good fit for me. if youre willing to throw away your life because of how bad it is. But if you give up, you forfeit any possibility of things changing or improving. Why? The number of middle class people keeps fading away. It has been a living nightmare for me and it’s progressively getting worse. If it were my grand son, I’d probably have that conversation with the parents and see if they want me to talk to their kid or not. There were days when all I could say is "Everything should be fine, but I'm depressed so I'm a failure." get up and fight. I'm hugging you so hard in my mind right now <3. i used to be like that. Staring at literally ANYTHING and feeling like you hate it, just because it's there, where you want there to be nothingness. Edit2: Should have added this before but this officially make my most upvoted and commented thread ever, keep em coming. Sometimes, the heaviness of this feeling simply comes down to this. Watch: How to Set a Goal When You Don’t Know What You Want. I know some people can relate to this. Draw. On the third day after taking the test, as I woke up to grab my Gatorade (which was the only thing I could stomach) it hit me: I don't want a child. If you haven't figured out what's tormenting you, locate it, and eradicate it. It is more expensive than other countries in Latin America, but it's definitely cheaper than Europe/North America. Like mentioned below, it is dangerous. like and subscribe for nothing in returnEnjoy some skittles! I wouldn’t dump my own feelings onto the child, but I’d listen to what he said and try to be as supportive and helpful as I could. Celebrities get elected in European Elections, National Elections and Local Elections just because they are famous. I can say for a fact that after everything I've been through, if some stranger came to me crying right now and told me they needed someone, I would listen with the most open heart I could. I don’t want to slow down or admit I need a break. I will leave chronic pain, anxiety, panic, and depression forever and it will awesome. I hate existing. I have to just find a job and face it. I didn’t have a choice about moving to my current home after my husband died 4 years ago. I don't know what it was. I’m 72 (but 30 on the inside). In my opinion, it is a brave thought. Cookies help us deliver our Services. On a Greek Island overlooking the blue blue Mediterranean. Nothing will ever feel right within myself and I will never be satisfied with my life, I never have. Waking up every morning and the first thought on your mind is ending it all. 2. I have hopes and dreams but I'm starting to think that they won't work out, I don't have a lot of friends I have trouble making friends and I feel like nobody likes me. Edit: Holy shit, my inbox will be visiting Leonard Nimoy very soon (this is a joke, please do not take offense.) There are a lot of people who abuse public transport services and use them without a ticket. I have never experienced it before and do not wish it on my worst enemy. It is such an American idea that we must be Happy all the time, and there is something wrong if we aren't. Some days are still very hard and the anxiety & pain are always there. The thing is that I don't know what else I want to do. I can't. We get a lot of tourists especially in summer and the people try to rip them off as much as they can asking for insane prices for something that is relatively cheap. WHAT HAVE YOU GOT TO LOSE than TRY. I’ve struggled with anxiety for many years and depression for the past year. I know. The roads really suck, the nature is awesome, some places are very polluted, but nothing outrageous. I told myself it was okay to be depressed. You matter. Using your knowledge of what you don’t want. Aucklander here so I'll be focusing a bit on Auckland: everything is expensive, compared to the U.S, except health care and education; house prices are crazy in Auckland and Christchurch, our largest and third largest cities respectively; we lack the scale for some cool things that larger places have, eg. If you have any questions, happy to help. 111 votes, 115 comments. you want to love yourself? But one of these days, my parents will die and my wife will leave....and I will be free to do what I think is right. But sometimes it feels like we can be better. You know what you want, you just don’t want to admit it. Even if it's a stranger, a pastor, a drug dealer, a gang member, it doesn't matter. However, thinking about your unfortunate past will only instigate the feeling of bitterness and sadness. Based on a character stillshot of Professor Farnsworth from the animated television show Futurama , the reaction image is frequently used on image boards and forums when replying to someone else's post that is deemed irritable or disagreeable (See also Are You Serious Face). However, I don't just want to be a … ___ Today I Will Be a Man. Sorry to make this about me, but I think you should try it. I’m slowly going where you are and hope you can bounce out of it. I don't know you, and I don't have to. I don't have the motivation to do anything with my life. (Lookin at you Australia). I am a widow and hate where I live. More mountains than you can shake a stick at. And the answer is always “I don’t know.” Because I don’t know. New comments cannot be posted and votes cannot be cast. You know its the right place to move to when literally no one from that country shows up and comments here because instead of wasting time on reddit they are actually out enjoying their lives. No matter how misguided in my opinion they are. It's Awful. Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts. Lot of taxes in electricity bills, water and basic things. By using our Services or clicking I agree, you agree to our use of cookies. There are also many reasons people don’t have sex, even it’s something they desperately want. Make a list of what you don’t want and then pivot it to what you do want. I’m just so tired and fed up with dealing with the stress everyday. Why do they get so fucking mad when they're the ones who told you to just do it already? You climb a mountain, and you get halfway, and you realize that your way is a dead end. There is no point. I’m so indecisive. That's why we have 700,000 civil servants in a 10,000,000 population country. I have been counting the days until I go away to college. and i mean REALLY, then you can escape it. FUCK them. We all have made mistakes or someone close has hurt us at some point in our lives. I tried to commit suicide several years ago and don't know how I didn't succeed. I just don’t know where to go and am afraid to make a … Reprinted here with permission, is a heartfelt declaration to being the best man we all know we can be. I just can’t stand the guilt of what it would do to my friends and family if I killed myself. If you were dead, you can't console those mourning your death, particularly by suicide. Even if, by some stretch, you prove me wrong and someone hands it all to you, you won't keep it. But I have found some relief in life. Universities are being controlled by political parties. I love you, OP. He asks me where I want to eat, what movie I want to see, what I want for Christmas. However, in the case of designing a new life path, it can be very useful to take a look at what you don’t want. Depression makes my brain go into hyper "fix it" mode (before it crashes). Those who do not experience it have no idea. It’s Saturday and I’ve been wandering around filling in time. If you go to Syntagma square it smells like tear gasses. youll feel rage its happening to you - WELL NO MORE! You just need to do positive things every day, because the end goal is inner peace to this turmoil. this is universal advice. Before I got pregnant, I would say I was 98 percent sure I didn't want … But now I get older I don’t want to end up with nothing in 10 years…. happiness doesnt appear on your lap, happiness takes effort. Expect many conversations to strike up with folks you don't know. I had my first anxiety attack today followed by another. Lots of Riots, every second month there are riots in Athens and Salonica. No kids, so I would not orphan anybody. And it will be okay. For example, I want … For 21 years I had the same thoughts of feeling like it would ALWAYS get worse. Unless you have some terrible illness possible bro . If you don't do what you need to do, you'll never get what you want. There’s an excellent mountain climbing analogy to this. For tourists, I think it's very nice, everyone seems so friendly and relaxed, but you have to be careful with scammers and people behind your money. Anyway, I'm here if you'd like to talk. Edit 2: r/newzealand may be able to help you out if you have more questions about NZ :), Free healthcare (overall a very good system), All the karma r/earthporn has to offer (it is truly a beautiful place), Pleasant summers (especially when compared to Australia), Very expensive to fly anywhere (except for Australia). What do I do? Don't worry so much about the end result of satisfaction or happiness, that all comes with time, for now, it important that you give your anxiety and depression the acknowledgement it deserves, and then, you do something positive. Fuck happiness, just do something in the moment that you like. good theme parks; country is young so we don't have much in the way of nice (read: old) architecture, we've got natural scenery up the wazoo but not so much of the man-made kind; Auckland and Wellington are our two largest cities and both are hilly as fuck, so good luck if you want to ride a bike; limited public transport (again, lack of scale hurts us here, but also bad planning in the past), especially Auckland, not sure about Wellington; no direct route to Auckland International Airport, so you'll end up driving through suburbs to get to/from the airport; thin ozone layer, so you'll sunburn easily unless you're diligent about wearing sunscreen or don't go outside for long periods, and of course more chance of skin cancer; earthquakes, except for the upper half of the north island. I've taken up smoking cigarettes about three months ago. I think it's more that society realizes that you can find happiness but it takes time. Go find them. I don't even like to hold babies, much less give birth to one. I just wish they/society in general could be more understanding. You never know when your hobby turns into a successful business venture. They don't have the skills to represent our nation but they still get elected because of stupid people. The media are being controlled by political parties and try to spread propaganda about how we are recovering from our crysis. The meds my doc put me on aren’t doing a thing. I don’t know how old you all are. Almost no part of me wants to live anymore. I don't want the pregnancy experience. It's okay to be unhappy, it's okay to be miserable and hate your current situation/life. All people, yes, even you. But eventually I had a break through. This is such a big one. Are we really that high up on people's list of countries to visit/live? You need to take that loathing and hate and channel it into something positive. I feel like chicken shit. YOU are worth more than depression can have a hold of you. Even once you work through your problems, you won't be happy all the time. I don’t think there is any solution to my problems, except to just get out there and do it. I Don’t Want to Live Anymore: 11 Ways to Get Unstuck 1. I don't want to live Anymore. imagine all the hatred and hurt and pain youve felt attacked you at once. But even then, happiness comes from within you, I have terrible mental disorders lol I think it’s comparable. I agree with you. There is a lot of corruption in our goverment that takes bribes and steals money. *edit: guess I was wrong they are on reddit... EVERYONES ON REDDIT! I feel that I have lived and seen sufficient that I don't need any longer here. One of which consists of self-talk that starts something like “I don’t know..” This, I’ve found is a horrible focal point, one that I like to overwrite when I can. I've also in the past said exactly the same thing. But happiness is like the moon, it wanes and waxes and sometimes it's just not there, and other times you are beaming with it. You are not alone in your feelings, and your life can improve if you let it. I know it probably seems like there is no good left in this world, or in people. Many kids don’t have very understanding parents. Wanna draw? I’m 18 years old … They don't know what it's like to no longer see life in color....to no longer taste anything. We don't have a lot of ticket inspectors therefore almost 40% of the attendants don't have a ticket. I'm hugging you so hard in my mind right now <3. I still feel the same way and I think I’ll always feel like this. That's why we have political parties like Golden Dawn that wants to get rid of them. I am alone, I don't care if people feel the same as me, I don't like people. Example: Zagorakis (Greek Soccer Player that was the MVP of Euro 2004 final) was elected on European Elections recently because he was famous. I've been through this full forced. your brain is deeply affected by bad hormones. Cut them out for good. The things you do matter. Like nothing about me or anything I did was ever even CLOSE to good enough. I just don't. The minimum wage keeps getting lower and lower, it used to be 800€/mo and soon will be 550€/mo. It isn't fair to you, or to those who love you. i stopped saying never. if you REALLY WANT TO ESCAPE IT. 24% VAT in everything you buy, unless it is a dairy product or food. The Law of Attraction is clear on never focusing on what we don’t want. Not gonna lie, you have to watch out where you walk in San Jose. They want to get, get, get with the most minimal amount of giving. I have recently been dealing with anxiety and depression due to medical reasons. Why did you pick Austin if you hate the weather there? Other than them and a few friends, no one would notice or care about my being. I hate the humanness of burnout, of being tired. It’s harder, still, to identify new goals and passions when you find yourself living a life you hadn’t quite planned on. Someone, anyone, will always be there to tell you they love you. I pretend to be happy so those that I care about don't worry. Our only hope for profit is our tourism. There are either lower middle class, poor or very rich. If they want to come protest us, you know what Lars, I welcome it. Why shouldn't it be okay for me to kill myself when everyone has already told me to do it? It can be found in life. but let me tell you. Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts. Around 30% on 25+ and almost 60% on 18-25. It doesn't have to be a direct fix for your issues, you simply must keep going. you can reverse the hormones affecting your brain with your feelings. your sad life has nothing to lose so try and make it unsad (i told myself this too). If you don’t know who you are and what you want, it makes it a lot harder to move forward in your life. Or if not, know that another stranger on the internet has felt your pain and cares about you. I want to believe in something. I'm from Costa Rica, generally it's pretty nice, depending of where you go it's rainy or humid. I love you, OP. “No, I don’t want to go there.” I can’t tell you how many times I’ve had this conversation with my husband. You see that if you want to get to the top, you’ll have to get down, find another way, and climb back up from the beginning. "I Don't Want to Live on this Planet Anymore" is an expression and reaction image often used to show disgust or disappointment with others. I don’t know if you drink or not but I had the first hand experience of stopping drinking and my self harm thoughts got much more manageable. Thank you for that. While life can throw us curveballs, the truth is most people are not willing to do the work it takes to achieve what they want. No animals can kill you. I do not live on a Greek Island overlooking the blue Mediterranean but I live in the second biggest city of Greece, Thessaloniki. I hate people. When you feel like you add nothing of value to anyone else's life, including your own, the option is pondered. Watch this Vice Documentary: http://youtu.be/bO0vPGRcn9c, New Zealand. Do it. I look at it like being able to wake up from a nightmare that won't stop. But people who live a truly fulfilling and successful life don’t … It’s hard, though, to know what goal to set when you don’t know what you want. Factories keep closing everyday, they are being moved to neighbor Balkan countries due to low HDI and very cheap working hands. I have social anxiety. I really just don’t want to be alive anymore. I don’t know if I want to live anymore Tw: suicidal thoughts I’ve felt suicidal in my past but always denied it, this is the first time I’ve ever contemplated it. The people are really genuine and friendly. If someone’s life is truly unhappy they should have the right to end it. To me, if someone genuinely feels that depressed, wanting to end it makes sense. Forget Your Past Failures. I can say for a fact that after everything I've been through, if some stranger came to me crying right now and told me they needed someone, I would listen with the most open heart I could. New comments cannot be posted and votes cannot be cast, More posts from the TrueOffMyChest community, Press J to jump to the feed. Man it feels like I'm on The Truman Show where people talk about NZ like it's the best place on Earth whenever we're mentioned on reddit. Mostly because of crippling daily anxiety and also extremely low self confidence/self hatred. I can't kill myself because I don't want to burden my family. You never know when your hobby turns into a successful business venture. I hope that you find hope. I don't have a passion for anything. Yo man. Or is it cheaper? By using our Services or clicking I agree, you agree to our use of cookies. Cookies help us deliver our Services. And thanks for the gold kind stranger, I have no idea what it does but I'll definitely make sure to find out. There is always discomfort but adjust to it. Do not let yourself suffer please. 31.0m members in the AskReddit community. You can beat these things, you can find happiness. I don't want to live near people at all. Sometimes, life is uncomfortable. The truth is, most people don’t work hard. There are a lot of strangers out there that I can guarantee would be willing to listen if you cried and begged them to please hear your story. And it was hard. But there ARE still good people. People cannot comprehend a life where the only emotion that you are able to experience is pain. I don't know what it is. Unfortunately as you understand, committing suicide hurts those around you. You have higher chances of getting a position because you know someone rather than getting it because you got the required skills. Depression and anxiety are so damn common these days. Cyrus Ausar shares his perspective on the thoughts of not wanting to live anymore and not wanting to commit suicide. The need to stop living is stronger in some. Hi. You can go hunting/fishing everywhere and not see another person for days. Huge tax evasion, not because we are greedy but because we don't trust our goverment anymore with our money. A man of principle, work, and character. Sorry for the depressing rant-if you read it, thanks. when youre that indeep you see no hope and you cant fathom hope, you feel entirely stuck and trapped that you believe it and dont see any exits. With change comes reinvention. I have worked so hard to drag myself out of that dark, dark place I hope to never go back to. I want people to protest things that they don’t see as right. We want to be a certain type of person. r/AskReddit is the place to ask and answer thought-provoking questions. Wanting to leave is not selfish nor is it cowardly. I'm not afraid to die. I'm very shy with no people skills. Wanna go on a walk in the rain? Having a life plan and vision and knowing your purpose and how you want to live your life are the foundations to building your confidence, resilience, courage, and accountability. Don't get me wrong; I'd hate the weather there too, but then I'd never consider moving there. He can't even speak proper English, hell he can't even speak Greek. I want to travel and see things. go shopping and try on new things and buy em. Press J to jump to the feed. And trust me, talking helps SOOO much more than you know. Because most people don’t care about a long-term vision and they only care about their own short-term vision. I know I’m depressed due to a lot of things. think of it as a positive feedback - itll just keep getting deeper into darkness UNLESS you put the breaks on it yourself and make a move. Have you ever gotten to the root of why you feel this way? im telling you its possible. You are forced to work overtimes without getting payed just to make sure your boss will not fire you. But nothing out of this world, there are secure zones and there are no curfews, like other countries in Central America. Do it. Wanna learn a new craft? Sometimes, we don’t have enough money to do all of the things we want to do. Writing or reasoning through my thoughts helped me feel less helpless being depressed. I had a suicide attempt this past May followed by months of therapy. Everything about you matters. You have better chances finding a job as an immigrant rather than Greek, because bosses take advantage of the system and hire people for ridiculously low wages and without insurance.